To Be Denounced

Jul 19

How low
Is your self esteem, how low
Could it possibly be?
I know, I know you’re in love with me and I’ve been ignoring you.

Jul 19

If I was drunk and passing out, you would still be the only one on my mind.
And I would tell you.

Jul 16

Wasting my time.
Always wasting my time.

Jul 14

I’m so mad, I’m so fucking mad.
You’re not what I need and it kills me. You can’t step up to the plate. You can’t handle me. And it’s fucking frustrating.

Jul 12

This tightness in my chest, or whatever this is, it’s exacerbated when I’m left to my own devices.

I am controlled, I am weak. It’s a miracle I’m still alive at all. I cannot fend for myself, my thoughts swallow me whole.

Dependence. As much as I want autonomy, I’ve yet to pull myself up, I’ve yet to prove to myself I can do anything. So I do nothing.

My heart is bound, my health is bound, my thoughts toxic and controlling. Set myself free. If I can.

Struggle struggle struggle

Jul 07

I’m dropping off before 2am. Would you still be awake?

"Definitely."

Jul 06

And it hurts me so bad to deny it
These feelings are out of control
Do you know what it’s like to want something so bad…
And then having to let it go?
And it hurts me to know that this time in our lives…
So soon will be in the past
And you spend it pretending you’re playing it cool.
Never knowing,
Never knowing,
Never knowing what,
what we should’ve been.
Tell me who should I be to make you love me?
Tell me what does it mean to be alone?
You’ve got me wondering if I’m good enough.
Pretty enough,
giving enough,
special enough
Tell me who should I be to make you love me?

Jul 04

Forever Ruled By Man

Just like an animal

Jul 04

I think I’ll cry myself to sleep.

Sounds like a great idea.

Jul 03
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