Kind of miss you.
I can’t tell you.
I feel like I’m nobody to you.
are in one of those moods and I
am in one of them, too
And it’s hard
He doesn’t want to call me his girlfriend, yet he gets upset when I hang out with someone else.
What do you want?
Is your self esteem, how low
Could it possibly be?
I know, I know you’re in love with me and I’ve been ignoring you.
If I was drunk and passing out, you would still be the only one on my mind.
And I would tell you.
Wasting my time.
Always wasting my time.
I’m so mad, I’m so fucking mad.
You’re not what I need and it kills me. You can’t step up to the plate. You can’t handle me. And it’s fucking frustrating.
This tightness in my chest, or whatever this is, it’s exacerbated when I’m left to my own devices.
I am controlled, I am weak. It’s a miracle I’m still alive at all. I cannot fend for myself, my thoughts swallow me whole.
Dependence. As much as I want autonomy, I’ve yet to pull myself up, I’ve yet to prove to myself I can do anything. So I do nothing.
My heart is bound, my health is bound, my thoughts toxic and controlling. Set myself free. If I can.
Struggle struggle struggle